Dear George Lucas

Dear George Lucas

This Is a letter to you to let you know just where I stand as an individual An inventor and reluctantly as a trans activist. Most Importantly as a possible candidate for being an associate at Lucasfilms LTD

Going over my notes today I realized something right after I realized another thing.. recorded them and they played back as predicted just as I realized them. then I Made another and then another building on success on predictable programmed habits built to react to other predictable programmed habits.. learned more and more .. finally I customized my whole 500 int 33 parts or 15 parts depending on how you look at it.   I basically did a little reversal on the program and complained for 500 of the very prograammed parts to be addressed with technical expertese one can only derive from successful first person declarations that are built on making 500 copies of themselves from nearly every direction with a feedback from each other to build up in a data base.

My thought was I want to be able to get a job or be commissioned by a company Like Disney
I figured a public letter would do the trick as I have My life on display deliberately holding nothing back and being as honest as humanly possible.

NOW. Dear Reader.. That is MY    W H O L E .............. MIND                 5 HUNDRED PARTS each part responsible to keep me breathing and sane and genius. Lets not forget genius Ill worry about sane and dead when I'm wondering how to plan the next moment. I have this thing I had placed in my conscious.. a tool that makes sure I don't offend anyone. I mean ANYONE Over the years Ive worked out an arrangement here and there to get a reprieve. The disabling part of this program left me belligerent at times and uncontrollably tick ridden and nervous wreck Its better parts left me overtly sensitive to the slightest very well guessed and recorded thought of most people around me.

A little one here another one there.. lucky for me the original questionnaire wasn't all together complete.   Meaning the people who wrote it in the original were after a few key points that bothered me and would torture me.. they left out some stuff that would have truly sunk me had it been for real guilt. They had to build the guilt in and made me through system of post hypnotic nervous triggers MADE me imitate people to the point of perfection.

This is what was made to come to life under the cruel watch of a Lie truth detector. There was a night in my history where I felt so guilty over taking my kids out on a date while I wasn't completely divorced with their mom.. they were crying in the back seat of the car we were in and begging for me to get back together with mom. I told them .. "That isn't going to happen" I was very cold back then, I had it with my Wife and was looking forward to a fresh start.. I regretted for a long time even now putting them through that. I still remember being scared for my own parents when I was their age and older.

Luckily My Parents never split. What made me feel guilty is "I KNEW THAT FEELING" This program never made use of it. It could have easily made use of the story about me feeling guilty about my kids in the back seat of a car as it typically seemed to do about every other lame indication of suggested sex even tortured me over talking about and thinking about having relationships with girls back when i was a teenager.. the program assuming i was talking about my adult self..

This story I never gave to the jerks who wrote the software into my brain to make me feel guilty.. the subject never even came up in the program. EVER. SO It appears as if they got to me from a select group of things they wanted me to think about again and again. eventually they tried to make me attracted to a few hundred separate kids through out the years.. There Is nothing more stomach turning than someone shocking you daily over being attracted to kids when you aren't.

The other crap I could now prove was manufactured.. especially to me.. Its one of those moments you have when you say GOTCHA! Knew It was a program and not some thing that was really me. among some other crappy things like it trying to make me imaging a picture of myself having sex somehow with me from when i was 13.
I always knew It was a program after that and was determined to beat it.

They left the program in my brain and left me to battle with it.
harassed me with keywords in it.. and worked with ways to acquire even more trigger phrases. this is the kind of program that takes over your muscularity and throws your body around in very articulated motions to accomplish goals for the ones who it finds to be dominant If I had the time I would describe just how many work orders their are in here to make me condition-able for them I would.. I dont have that kind of time tonight. I'm convinced Im part of a group of incest victims that had to be harrassed by

By groups forcing my family to be tested into fake conditions. So making my mind question itself was important to allow these people to be able to get their mits into me. Because of some local group amassing loyal followers with a therapy that rids your brain of habits.. habits that didn't really exist before just to insure peoples silence.

I was made to have sex with my sisters not by anyone i could point to.. I was just made psychic to be able to to cope with the empathic feelings in my own family
at 7.

I was made to encounter a therapy that was NLP in nature made for my parents who never had anything to worry about.
Just victims of a corrupt and fraudulent justice system. Not known to me as a kid just a lot of super synchronicity and esp like episodes to which currently they stand by me reluctantly in the face of the people who intimidated them.

This thing had me a slave to anyone who knew my buttons.. back then It was Latin speaking people they programmed my nervous impulses to obey latin.. not KNOW latin.. just to obey it.

For years I had to a sort of jury wriggling of what weird sound did what.
Seven years. All Day Every Day.

Its been recently IVe had the time to spend long nights programming habit after habbit. burning brain cells with controlled cortisol burns and controlled strokes.
I worked HARD long hours at the goudsboro station house night after night honing in on the fineries of what made it work.. all these years collecting personalities from tv and movies and cartoons assigning them different roles the consciousness I was able to get them to imitate the bad guys personalities and train them to write alternative texts for the offensive one liners that were written in here.

I believe I was conditioned to at the right time like a lot of fathers who found them selves in this position to be tested and be counted on to be extorted later if they presented a problem.
I one night just to be funny made a move towards my son at 2 and I always wondered what caused that.
I thought i would prank him with what he thought was a bottle. It disturbed me.

Sorry Frankie I wanted to tell you in person but this crap doesn't leave me much choice.

It always had me perplexed because I would have continued with a habit had I wanted to but i did nothing else.
Which tells me someone somehow made me do it.
Im an inventor If It were a habit i would have tried again. I never did.

I did some reading up on vocal modulation using microwaves. they could have done that in the 70s.
80s 90s

You see. They took away the one part I would always count on.. 100 percent nothing to worry about. always that little bit of doubt..
well not now.. Now Im angry. Im convinced they have an army of would be partents who are afraid right now because of this crap.
HOW DARE THEY.

I wanted to keep that part to myself.. but this group wants to torture this out of me and the program seems to be bent on keeping it using it and torturing me with it.

I have very little feelings of guilt left what I have are feelings of rage for the people who thought I would make an easy target for this.

a trans woman would make such an easy target the moment she dawned make up..

This same group was going to leave me alone back while i was still in closet.. then they caught me wearing nail polish as i was working up the nerve to come out of the closet.

I have Designs of giving birth to my own baby some day.. I don't need this manufactured crap in me.

So I took their program they seemed to have stolen from a government source and abused me with.. and trained it to be a genius machine.
I just know I owe It to you to relieve you of any supposed awkward feelings about my situation. and Impress the potential SH*T out of potential employers and or clients.

I have evidence in my brain that will level the ground with how many people they have made commit crimes using this program.
Including involve people in an assassination Plot.
Just to cover for some department of defense hand me down used by some crooked cops.
A trainer for being an agent working in high government if left to its original devices.

If all you wanted was the truth about my life,I think sodium Pentanol would have worked better guys

Im reminded of the Movie stripes.
Thats a fact Jack! Mr Lucas.

By the way I Invented a way for a jet engine to be built using Nano Muscles.. no biggy.
and can display it on screen in my vision. A vision they tried to use in subliminal to make me make love to babies of babies of babies .....or so it said.

Your friendly Neighborhood Artist
Melissa Adrian Bonet